I’ve known that I can justify procrastination in many things. This website sadly became one of them this past month. I’ve been meaning to do entries and updates every four days or so. Look how bad I’ve kept to that!
I’m in the middle of my first week back to school from Spring Break. Instead of doing a typical spring break trip either to home or to exotic locations with friends, I decided to do something out of the ordinary. I did a 5-day silent retreat at a Jesuit retreat house up on Lake Dallas (www.montserratretreat.org). Unbelievable is the only way to describe it. I did a ton of reading, a ton of writing, and quite a bit of praying during it. The goal was to help me figure out how to go about selecting a seminary and looking more into my calling to ministry. With the help of a spiritual director who I talked to once a day, I briefly covered those topics but also went much deeper. I’m still going through my journals and reflecting on it. During the next couple of months, you’ll probably see some of the entries show up on this site. The retreat was possible because of a grant I received through a fellowship I have with The Fund for Theological Education (www.thefund.org). I’m anxious to write up my reflection for them as well. I have all of this writing to do; now I just have to it! Oh bother! (hear that as Eeyore speaking from the Winnie the Pooh movies).
So what can you expect from this site coming up? First, several more picture galleries and additions to the ones I have up there. I’m going to hopefully find time this weekend to organize what goes on the site from the tons of pictures I’ve taken in the past month. Second, weekly reflections. I definitely don’t want to fall behind with these. Third, foreshadows to events, opportunities and other fun obscure things that I’m planning on doing in the future (for instance, many down here are shocked that I’m going to Florence, Italy for the Fall 2005 semester … more to come on that later). Fourth, either literary or lyrical insights from the material I’m reading or hearing.
The first entry for the lyrical insight comes from one of my favorite songs I’ve listened to WAY too much in the past month: “Take Me As I Am” from the musical Jekyll & Hyde .
Henry:
Sometimes I see past the horizon,
sure of my way, where I am going
But where’s the prize I have my eyes on?
Where? There is just no knowing!
And when despair tears me in two,
Who can I turn to but you?
You know who I am … take me as I am
Emma:
Look in my eyes, who do you see there?
Someone you know, or just a stranger?
If you are wise, you will see me there!
Love is the only danger!
Love meaning me, love meaning you,
We’ll make that one dream come true!
You know who I am … take me as I am.
Henry and Emma:
Though fate won’t always do what we desire
Still we can set this world on fire!
Give me your hand, give me your heart
Swear to me we’ll never part
You know who I am … this is who I am … take me as I am …
I don’t have any flowery insight to add to those lyrics or how they relate to my life. They’re poetic and cliché, yet so gorgeous (especially when put to music). One of the great insights I gained through the retreat, however, was to ask the question: in real life, who/what’s Emma and who/what’s Henry? In what ways do we show this level of devotion?