A little over two weeks ago I made a mistake. And, unlike most other instances, I didn’t automatically try to fix it.
Edmund Harris, one of my fellow MDiv students, invited me to visit his congregation he serves. I brought along the camera to make sure Edmund had good pictures for his upcoming presentation to his classmates on where he works (it’s something the 2nd-year MDiv students do in their Practicum course). Acting as the gracious host, Edmund showed the main highlights most visitors see: the fellowship hall, the sanctuary, the front of the building. When we returned from the chilly breeze outdoors, Edmund showed me the side-chapel off the sanctuary. I immediately snapped a picture only to realize my camera was still in “shutter-priority” mode for the outside rather than “aperture-priority” mode for the inside shots. A quick flip of the switch and that was changed, but unlike other times, I didn’t delete the faulty picture I’d just snapped.
For those who have seen my desktop setup in my room, you know the screen “real estate” I work with. My 23″ monitor lets me see pictures almost at the zoom level the camera captures them. It’s a blessing and a curse. It’s much more rare with the larger screen for me to instantly like pictures; before, when viewing them on the back of the camera, I could instantly pick out the keepers; now the flaws have all the attention they need.
The picture above is a cropped version of the “reject” shot from shooting in the chapel at St. Christopher’s. So … maybe it’s a virtue to not reject something immediately.
Stained-glass windows are the most difficult subject to photograph, save for waterfalls. (Trust me: I have an entire memory-card full of pictures from St. Peter’s in the Vatican where I tried, and failed, so hard at capturing the dove/Spirit window behind the altar.) The difference in light from the subject (either the light-permeated glass or the speed of the flowing water) and the ambient background leaves little in-camera options. Yes, there are filters such as the “neutral density” type which let the camera balance the light so that one exposure captures everything — not too light and not too dark. But, since those cost so much, the best solution (by far!) is to balance the tonalities within software. The downside of this economical option: for the trained eye, those pictures can stand out because a great edit makes it obvious why they look so good. Some photo blends are too good to be real.
What, you ask, did I do to the picture above from St. Christopher’s? I left it. Besides cropping and adjusting the contrast so the wall looked as black as the picture referenced, the photo is preserved. The low-key picture — with a majority of the photo being the darker tones — was the look I kept.
The photo conundrum from the above situation is also a good metaphor for my current quarter at the University of Chicago Divinity School. I’m appreciating the situation and the atmosphere and how its challenges are shaping me; but there are so many instances in which my first reaction is “oh, that was a mistake, let me tweak this and adjust that setting.”
I’m over-compensating. Sometimes my gut tells me to paint the background darker and focus on the foreground. I catch the meaning from the author but I seemingly ignore the surrounding issues in which the author struggles. At other times I focus so much on the larger theological issue that the author’s point looks more like my own construction to match my argument than what she was actually saying. Why is this a new problem that wasn’t plaguing me in undergraduate courses?
Luckily, my high-value filter came at the right time. For my Public Church in America course, the ideal text was published after we finished most of the course. My closest friends are probably rolling their eyes since I keep talking about it, but on Nov. 1st, Mark Toulouse released God in Public: Four Ways American Christianity and Public Life Relate. This book is my neutral density filter that gives great exposure to what I’ve been reading in class this quarter. He spends three chapters specifically on the Public nature of Christianity and how it looks in the post-modern worldview.
His book wrestles with the issue of how much Christians not only do, but should, interact in Public life. Should individuals try to make “the” Christian viewpoint ruling for the rest of everyone else living in society? Should individual Christians engage Public life while not speaking as a church entity? Should the Church itself (denominations, congregations, groups of individuals) enter the Public conversation and how much of their voice should be allowed in the full discussion?
The book is worth it!
Mark had one point that will undoubtedly serve as the foundation for my final paper for the class: when the Public church does engage, it leaves behind any inherent privilege from previous social misconceptions and enters the conversation without invincibility … and that’s a good thing. “Christians who truly want to engage the public life of the nation must be willing to risk their comfort for discussion and dialogue; they must be willing to make their arguments in a context where counterarguments are made and all who participate are held accountable to the critical analysis of ideas” (190). My margin note was one phrase: “to do so may require talking less and listening more.” That’s the best strategy in which Christian voices will avoid the pitfalls of inadequacy in the dialogue. If Christianity is to have relevance in the Public sphere, it must step up to the challenge and give a reason for justice and mutual community to be the goals of all humanity.
Until next time …