Just to warn anyone still reading this: this entry may seem a reckless rant, but it’ll hopefully come together at the end.
Life and Time are filled with music; at least, in my life they are. Journals are great for helping me reflect, but the moment is best captured with music. It seems that every 5 months or so I hit a great splurge (or binge as the case may be) in creativity. I become obsessive about finishing projects and I sacrifice a lot to get them done. The most notable instance was the KingQuest project the night before leaving for Florence. I’d been working on the application for three weeks full-time and the night before I left for Italy I finished the build that worked. It was a milestone made of music: Wicked. The soundtrack to the musical “Wicked”, was the driving force to those many, many hours of coding and developing. I bought the album on the iTunes Music Store and set it on loop. It doesn’t take much for one to guess what I WASN’T listening to on the inter-continental flight. In those three weeks, I purchased the CD and it jumped to the upper echelon of my Most-Played playlist (circa 100 times).
I’m now in the middle of one of those creative binges; and it’s a wonder I’m even able to recognize it part-way through. I returned from a short trip to Ft. Worth on Tuesday and ever since then I’ve only been able to concentrate on one thing: checking things off of the list. On the plane I made a list of 20 items (since it’s added about five items per day) and I’ve been working to check them off as fast as I can. It’s a wonder that each of the items is so easily removed: consulting on a fellowship with Dr. Hill where I’m helping him pick the video recording device for his research, coordinating with Judy to get Daryl’s backups to his colleagues in his translation project with Westar, adding yet another feature to KingQuest to make it my quintessential project for what I think should drive scholarship for the next decade, and a project for staff of the Christian Church in Kentucky, enabling them to do expense and hour tracking in order to maintain the accountability undermining their relationship with their congregations.
Beyond these, I’m also trying to increase my creative knowledge: I’m working on learning new techniques in Photoshop blending modes for a tribe project fermenting in the back of my mind; I’m making sure to keep better track of my thank-you notes I owe people for the blessings in my life — they’re slowly coming out, but obviously won’t make it to everyone who deserves them; I’m beginning the steps for my last-minute efforts to prepare for Chicago — Greek vocabulary, journal reading, note reviewing, etc. In all of this, the development happens with music.
The Kentucky project has excelled through U2’s “How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb” album. The KingQuest text entry carried on in time with Rascal Flatt’s “Me and My Gang.” My travels to and from Ft. Worth during the past month (four trips in these four weeks if my counting’s right) are accompanied with eclectic mixes from friends ranging from Eminem’s “Shake That” to a collection of Blue October, Caleb Kane and other artists’ songs.
More than anything, this past month has been a roller coaster, oscillating through a set of emotions. While the looped music definitely feeds those emotions and their changes, it also gives the continuity to this stream coming out of me. I’m at a crossroads — in the next few days my creativity will either skyrocket and completely change in scope (it’s happened about 60 percent of the time I’ve recognized this stage), or it’ll change back and I’ll have to wait for yet another turn. We’ll see.